This morning, after the first call to prayer, I lay awake allowing my mind to wander through things. This past week, I had to endure one of the hardest things I had to do. I had to leave my son behind in the states so he could attend college. I am having a hard time wrapping my mind around the fact that he won't be here when I wake up in the morning or when I go to sleep at night. He has been a part of this family for 18 years and now he is somewhere I am not. I am very proud of him and I know that he can do this but I also miss him terribly. Coming back to our apartment without him just doesn't feel right. I keep expecting him to show up but he doesn't. When we left him, I told J that I was sad and she replied "don't worry, mom, we will see him again." But when we arrived at the apartment, she asked me where he was.
What am I doing right now? I am unpacking and then I will be getting ready for the baby. I am trying to keep busy so I don't have to think about it....much. Only in the darkest part of the morning, when the prayer wakes me up, do I let my mind wander over the things that I am trying to avoid.
So...DS have you called your mother lately?
I miss him too, Mama.
ReplyDeleteBut he's off to start a new life and its, dare I say it the "A" word. Lol.
We all are proud of him and he brings an incredible light to this world that no one else has and this world needs that. Some kid at his college might need it. He is off to do what God has called him to do. He's gonna come back. I know this. (:
I love you.
Kirstieeee.